(That sure was a trial huh!! There are some people he really needs to talk to, Alyssa being one of them. He'll catch her in their room!! And just sort of, hang out by the door, a good distance away,)
I apologize for putting you on the spot like that.
(He is... very sorry and if they get close enough, she'll be able to feel that from him but until then, he'll stay over where he is.)
[ claude returns to the pyxis room at a very awkward time. alyssa is packing her belongings up—while it isn't much, just some spare clothes and her item stowed away in one of the room's chests—and gathering them into her arms when she hears the door open. there's a flicker of surprise on her face before she puts on a more neutral expression and turns her attention back to her stuff. ]
It's strange... you didn't really strike me as a rude type before any of that.
(It's fine, this is fine. For as sorry he is, he's also just... used to being called things. He's pretty resigned to it!)
Yeah... I'll admit, I'm not exactly as nice as I let on. I'm a schemer so I'm not above doing some pretty offensive things. In fact, back home, no one really trusts me and for good reason.
(And he's not ashamed of it either!)
Believe me or not, it wasn't personal. I was working with what we knew at the time but obviously, I had the wrong idea.
[ hm. she isn't exactly expecting him to say something like that at all, least of all so candidly. it's enough to get her to stop what she's doing and give him her full attention, turning to regard him with a more critical eye than before. a few seconds pass before she says very carefully, ]
If you just wanted to apologize to me... then why are you telling me all this? Are you trying to justify what happened?
(He doesn't seem bothered at all by this. She watches him and he stays the same-- just hanging out by the door, arms crossed, and... well, it's less relaxed and more resigned to everything.)
In a sense. Justifying implies I'm right and within reason, doesn't it? I was wrong. I can admit that and accept my mistakes. But none of it was without reason.
There was evidence and there were facts. I looked at what we had at the time and presented my thoughts. I knew it wasn't perfect-- I didn't know your relationship to Raven, for example-- but if I'd said nothing at all, then the I would have just stayed wrong and never known better. And while we certainly wasted time on a theory that ended up wrong, if I spoke up later, we probably wouldn't have had enough time to rule things out.
(Those are... the facts. Things that aren't exactly nice to think about but are still the truth. )
I'm sorry for putting you in a difficult position and I'm sorry I was wrong. Hold a grudge if you must. I'm not apologizing for your forgiveness or to make myself feel better.
Then what for? What else would you be saying sorry for? I mean... I get that I'm maybe a little biased right now, but this all sounds pretty self-righteous to me. So much for innocent until proven guilty, right?
[ with that, she turns back around with her arms now full of her meager possessions. she still wears a smile on her face, but what claude will experience tells a slightly more complicated tale; he won't really be able to get a clear sense of what's really going through her head, like she's actively guarding and bottling it up... but it might still make it easier for him to see that her eyes don't quite crinkle at the edges. ]
Well, you've made your case, and I've heard it. I hope you understand why I'm staying with someone else for the next couple of days.
Only for the trouble. For being wrong and causing grief.
(That's all he's apologizing for.
It's a familiar smile, one he's sometimes accused of having himself. He's someone who wears fake smiles and laughs easily to keep others away. He never completely reveals to others what he's thinking and that stands true, even now. )
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Week 2, after trial
I apologize for putting you on the spot like that.
(He is... very sorry and if they get close enough, she'll be able to feel that from him but until then, he'll stay over where he is.)
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It's strange... you didn't really strike me as a rude type before any of that.
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Yeah... I'll admit, I'm not exactly as nice as I let on. I'm a schemer so I'm not above doing some pretty offensive things. In fact, back home, no one really trusts me and for good reason.
(And he's not ashamed of it either!)
Believe me or not, it wasn't personal. I was working with what we knew at the time but obviously, I had the wrong idea.
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If you just wanted to apologize to me... then why are you telling me all this? Are you trying to justify what happened?
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In a sense. Justifying implies I'm right and within reason, doesn't it? I was wrong. I can admit that and accept my mistakes. But none of it was without reason.
There was evidence and there were facts. I looked at what we had at the time and presented my thoughts. I knew it wasn't perfect-- I didn't know your relationship to Raven, for example-- but if I'd said nothing at all, then the I would have just stayed wrong and never known better. And while we certainly wasted time on a theory that ended up wrong, if I spoke up later, we probably wouldn't have had enough time to rule things out.
(Those are... the facts. Things that aren't exactly nice to think about but are still the truth. )
I'm sorry for putting you in a difficult position and I'm sorry I was wrong. Hold a grudge if you must. I'm not apologizing for your forgiveness or to make myself feel better.
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[ with that, she turns back around with her arms now full of her meager possessions. she still wears a smile on her face, but what claude will experience tells a slightly more complicated tale; he won't really be able to get a clear sense of what's really going through her head, like she's actively guarding and bottling it up... but it might still make it easier for him to see that her eyes don't quite crinkle at the edges. ]
Well, you've made your case, and I've heard it. I hope you understand why I'm staying with someone else for the next couple of days.
ugh my notifs. sorry!!!
(That's all he's apologizing for.
It's a familiar smile, one he's sometimes accused of having himself. He's someone who wears fake smiles and laughs easily to keep others away. He never completely reveals to others what he's thinking and that stands true, even now. )
Right, I can't blame you.