Just cause they were the first ones doesn't make you any less of an important person to me, silly.
[She's staying on her side in the grass because wow!! Wow grass she has missed grass. But she's looking up at him sideways with that owlish stare of curiosity, nodding quickly. She remembers!]
There was a time though... When I was young, my parents mentioned the idea of another child. The way parents do when they want their families to grow and help their firstborn understand. (Something he'd observed and come to understand as he grew.) And I'd told them no. Absolutely no way.
I didn't want anyone else to live like me; hated, always looking over their shoulder, fighting every day... I would have rather stayed alone than let anyone else be like me.
(It truly was a difficult and unfortunate childhood.)
Watching you, it really reaffirmed a lot of those feelings. (They'd both made mistakes. Ruined relationships. Caused trouble. Struggled so much in the Realm. Even if they were different, they'd overlapped in some ways.) Anyone related to me would have a hard time.
But being there for you? You being there for me? ... It's a little selfish given the circumstances but those moments were nice. Even when when we were miserable... those moments were easier. And that made everything else easier too.
I was never alone because I had you. And I always felt like... someone could understand me. Like I could be myself around you.
(He raises a hand to his chest, touching his heart as he speaks,)
I've never been a brother before. This was my first time... and I have a lot to learn still. And there were times I was no good. But it's been the greatest honor.
(Why is he so dramatic... because he's a JRPG protag lord, that's why.)
[Her eyes soften with emotion, listening to him talk of being alone, of wanting to keep that burden to himself. His life... it really had been so hard for him. And despite everything she's been forced to learn while stuck in the Realm, part of her wishes she could ease the pain on his heart. But this was always his battle to fight, not hers. She was a support from the sidelines, a sword in his army, not someone to help lead him along when he very early knew where he wanted to go. She could help him back to his feet. He always had to be the one to choose to keep walking.
...
She quietly extends a hand to him from where she lies, resting against his knee.]
To care for somebody else... it doesn't matter what you call it in the end. It never means to be perfect. It means to be yourself, and to experience the good and the bad and make all the mistakes you make... and to know that someone is there to help you, if you can't do it on your own. It means watching their backs, and sharing in the things you both know.
To have a sibling is not much different than having a close, close friend. I don't think it should be, anyway.
I couldn't have prayed for a better brother, a better friend, than you.
(He's just a beginner brother, still. Only 2 months into this. He won't argue with her. He'll only accept her words. A sibling is like a very close friend. Yes, he can see that. A very precious, dear friend.)
I've never been a religious person. (So he's never prayed.) But something like this... it feels like fate.
(Like something was at work to let them meet. To make sure they found each other? There also appears to be something else on his mind but... for now, he keeps it to himself. It's a thought he needs to think on just a little more.)
One of the first times we spoke was like this, you know. (Out on the grass, under the sky. What was it? The second time?) ... Everything comes full circle in the end.
(It really does make things feel like things are finally coming to an end.)
Mm. It's a place that makes me think about you. To be outside under the sun, where it's warm and colorful and bright.
[It's not like his desert jewel or the city on the sea. It's the feel of sunshine and the smell of grass, the sound of the trees, the castle in the distance, his smile above her.]
I know it's probably something a little stupid to think about, when we don't know what's gonna happen. But I want a lot more days like this. I wanna keep being happy and learning things with my special people near me... I want to always love and keep being loved.
If there's a way for us to ever see one another again... I want to find it.
[Her selfish wish, one that she knows she will have to earn by her own hands. But she never came into this game to win. She did not need the Realm, to love another person and to want to be by their side.]
(Color him surprised! Because his eyes widen some at that and he really, really can't help but laugh. He smiles widely and raises a hand to his mouth to cover the laugh that comes out,)
[There's confusion at first, at how he laughs. But recognition settles, and her smile blossoms immediately, warm and excited and spreading up to her eyes with the dimples that only seemed to show up on her most genuine expressions, even from her lopsided little view on the grass.]
You mean it?? If we can find something like that --
You really want that, too, Khalid? To be together??
There are people I want to introduce you to. Teach, the Golden Deer... my parents too. (He wonders what their reactions would be like. Would they be surprised to see that their lonely son has expanded their family on his own? Hm.) I want to show you Fodlan. And Almyra too.
And of course, I want to see everything you have to share, too.
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(But he won't press it. He'll accept it. How can he fight when she says his name like that, too? He's w e a k.
He sits up in the grass, legs crossed, holding onto his ankles casually,)
... Do you remember when I told you I'd never been a brother before?
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[She's staying on her side in the grass because wow!! Wow grass she has missed grass. But she's looking up at him sideways with that owlish stare of curiosity, nodding quickly. She remembers!]
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(Story time.)
There was a time though... When I was young, my parents mentioned the idea of another child. The way parents do when they want their families to grow and help their firstborn understand. (Something he'd observed and come to understand as he grew.) And I'd told them no. Absolutely no way.
I didn't want anyone else to live like me; hated, always looking over their shoulder, fighting every day... I would have rather stayed alone than let anyone else be like me.
(It truly was a difficult and unfortunate childhood.)
Watching you, it really reaffirmed a lot of those feelings. (They'd both made mistakes. Ruined relationships. Caused trouble. Struggled so much in the Realm. Even if they were different, they'd overlapped in some ways.) Anyone related to me would have a hard time.
But being there for you? You being there for me? ... It's a little selfish given the circumstances but those moments were nice. Even when when we were miserable... those moments were easier. And that made everything else easier too.
I was never alone because I had you. And I always felt like... someone could understand me. Like I could be myself around you.
(He raises a hand to his chest, touching his heart as he speaks,)
I've never been a brother before. This was my first time... and I have a lot to learn still. And there were times I was no good. But it's been the greatest honor.
(Why is he so dramatic... because he's a JRPG protag lord, that's why.)
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...
She quietly extends a hand to him from where she lies, resting against his knee.]
To care for somebody else... it doesn't matter what you call it in the end. It never means to be perfect. It means to be yourself, and to experience the good and the bad and make all the mistakes you make... and to know that someone is there to help you, if you can't do it on your own. It means watching their backs, and sharing in the things you both know.
To have a sibling is not much different than having a close, close friend. I don't think it should be, anyway.
I couldn't have prayed for a better brother, a better friend, than you.
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(He's just a beginner brother, still. Only 2 months into this. He won't argue with her. He'll only accept her words. A sibling is like a very close friend. Yes, he can see that. A very precious, dear friend.)
I've never been a religious person. (So he's never prayed.) But something like this... it feels like fate.
(Like something was at work to let them meet. To make sure they found each other? There also appears to be something else on his mind but... for now, he keeps it to himself. It's a thought he needs to think on just a little more.)
One of the first times we spoke was like this, you know. (Out on the grass, under the sky. What was it? The second time?) ... Everything comes full circle in the end.
(It really does make things feel like things are finally coming to an end.)
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[It's not like his desert jewel or the city on the sea. It's the feel of sunshine and the smell of grass, the sound of the trees, the castle in the distance, his smile above her.]
I know it's probably something a little stupid to think about, when we don't know what's gonna happen. But I want a lot more days like this. I wanna keep being happy and learning things with my special people near me... I want to always love and keep being loved.
If there's a way for us to ever see one another again... I want to find it.
[Her selfish wish, one that she knows she will have to earn by her own hands. But she never came into this game to win. She did not need the Realm, to love another person and to want to be by their side.]
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Really...
(How are they alike?)
I was thinking the same thing.
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You mean it?? If we can find something like that --
You really want that, too, Khalid? To be together??
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There are people I want to introduce you to. Teach, the Golden Deer... my parents too. (He wonders what their reactions would be like. Would they be surprised to see that their lonely son has expanded their family on his own? Hm.) I want to show you Fodlan. And Almyra too.
And of course, I want to see everything you have to share, too.